Review.... My sentiments of you

There is a saying “the race is not for the swiftest, but for those that endure to the end”. Today is December 6^th, today is the last day to submit the final of my  fifteen blogs. After the fourteenth blog I decided I had enough, it’s only one blog short, no worries right? I then thought to myself, why am I being so selfish? What about the persons that had been following me week after week, commenting and advising on what should be my next topic of discussion.

Should they not know how I feel now? Should they not know that I don’t accept but I understand that my father were afraid of being a father to a boy child, because the expectations are harder. The past three months, has been a learning experience for me. Honestly it has been an experience I thought I have dealt with years ago. At first I was skeptical about speaking of something so personal, only when I begin writing and conversing I started hearing other persons like me speaking up. A lot of people have been asking me if I would be continuing my blog.  This I cannot answer just yet, As mentioned in everything in life there is good and Bad, fathers let us try to overpower the bad. As to my dad, I forgive you, the below poem is Exactly my sentiments towards you

Daddy, that word you pronounce that the ending sounds like and E

But it’s really a Y

Yes a Y, de same thing I use to cry

When I say  “why me”

Why me out of the two you hated the most

Why me out of the two had to justify my post

Here’s why, you were too afraid

Afraid of another man that would carry your name

And give it what you would have wanted …”Fame”

Yes fame I said, that’s what you like !

Like when I passed all 6 subjects at CXC , you thought you had all d bragging rights

But yuh right!

That’s your rights, but what about mine?

What about my rights to be loved unconditionally?

 I forgive you though,

Forgive you of all your folly

And every day I pray and thank God for mommy

This communication class caused me to study

Not you!

But the causes and effects of  all dead beat daddies

What I know now, I did not know then

But I thank you

Thank you for sticking with my sister to the very end

Because all de talk I talk about a boy needs a father

So too does a girl, in this cold and trouble world

So for now we would pretend that you did it for us

At least in her life she has a man she can trust 

Enjoy this song people https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0VIW4HDfNKQ